It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas… or is it? I’ve been counting down the days subconsciously in my mind, although I know celebrations this year will be vastly different. What can I say, I’m such a sucker for a big occasion! Any excuse for a big feast, sparkly outfits and a bold red lip is exactly where I want to be and the 25th is usually the designated one for all of those things.
Getting into the cheerful spirit this year has been somewhat of a challenge. On one hand, there is this wild urge to have the most fun I’ve ever had following the insane year that rudely burst through like an uninvited guest to cause a commotion and stir up trouble. In the same way, after everything, it’s kind of weird to let all that be an afterthought and allow myself to indulge in the festivities, but if there’s one year we really needed Christmas to find us, it is definitely this one. We certainly deserve it!
Last night I was out with my mom and sisters, and as we stopped to get takeaway, it dawned on us how much the current situation has impacted businesses around the city. I mean it’s really easy to get caught up in all the numbers and facts and figures, but when you get to see a deserted city on a Saturday night, it hits all over again like a poked unhealed wound.
For me, I’ll be using the blurry days of celebration to recharge and find myself once more.
During a year that seemed everchanging and unpredictable, it was always hard to stop and process all the adapting we had to do. There was a lot of tolerating, adhering, changing that had to be done, and all that in what seemed to be a blink of an eye. I feel like a different person compared to who I was on the first day of the new decade, and I’m sure it’s time for me to look in the mirror and get to know the person I’ve become. I’ve said it before: in the end, you have to face yourself.
This Christmas, as strange as it may be, I’ll be putting my time into practising gratitude more than I have lately – much was taken from us, but we also got some in return. If the only thing I got this year was some perspective, well, that’s something!
Lastly, I’ll be using this time to reflect on who I am as a person, but also to recharge and get motivated again.
I can’t lie, as I hinted at in my previous post, for some time now, it has felt I’ve been running on low battery, enough for survival, not enough for anything else – somehow, I know for certain that I’m not the only one. This is why this season I’ll be plugging myself back into things that fill me up rather than the ones that dry me out.
This will mean doing things for myself first, prioritising my happiness and mental health as well as taking time to rest without an ounce of guilt. I don’t expect much from the year we are about to greet – I think I learnt my lesson – but I do want to be in a healthier state of mind when I do meet the new year.
Whatever you do in the next few weeks, make sure you are putting yourself first. Christmas will be an odd one for everyone this time around, for some even a lonely one, but whatever you do please stay safe, have as much fun as you can and use this time to recharge.
Sending lots of love to you and yours. Happy Holidays! xx
Your restless romantic roamer
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